Ten.Ten. speaks on Sweets* article! Pt.2

Hello! This is part two to the previous article. In this article I will be speaking as an Idol. I never considered myself an Idol. Everyone else did. I realized it as well when I started getting messages saying "I have become your fan...", "You should visit and spread all your kindness to your fans....". Weird messages that only celebrities get and I then realized they were holding me to a different level. 

I am talking about the readers of my personal blog, which is hosted on a blogging platform Ameba Blog, with over 13,000,000 registered users. As of May I am number 88,106. I actually dropped because I took a week vacation from blogging in May. Anyway...I still really don't like to consider myself an Idol even though I've been blogging there for a year. I yearn to be seen as just a friend. I don't like all the critiques I get and influence I have. I still call them readers or friends...never fans.

I actually started blogging in Japanese so no one I knew could read it. I was hiding XD.  So, when I started getting attention for it and people constantly complimenting my Japanese and telling me I inspired them to blog in English and soon other famous bloggers where messaging me and introducing me on their blogs, of course at first it all went to my head. I was addicted to the attention. Little did I know once you take away what they call you an idol for and try to change or show another side of you, they'll leave in a heartbeat and move onto someone else. So, you Pico Idols who are liked because you have AG. Once you take away that AG don't expect anyone to stay. Once a bigger and better Clan comes around, don't expect anyone to want to joins yours anymore.Bloggers are no exception. If you started a Pico blog and then once you gained a lot of attention started talking about your life...your not going to keep most of your readers. Your readers came for Pico, Pico is what they want to hear about or see.

I was really depressed and hurt that so many people liked such a superficial and small piece of me. Still to this day, with all the views, comments, messages, and gifts I get, I feel lonely. I took a week vacation in May during my blogs anniversary week. I had made a video for my readers, sent out gifts and I was just pooped and fed up. So, I took a week to just think about where my blog is heading and how I want to be perceived. It took a lot of maturity and almost a year for me to start thinking about how I affect people and what I can do for them not just what they can do for me.

Therefore, like Sweets* said, just stop and think before you put so much faith or "love" into someone. Not all people are worthy of such a position. And for those Idols out their please do the right and kind thing to do by those who look up to you.